CNY.

Yo! happy cny guys :) Sorry that I didn't reply many messages because I just came back from singapore. Thanks for the wishes <3 I think this is impossible for me to wish everybody here right. I love you all and you know who you're.

How's your new year eve? Hmnnn. Went IONS with my cousins and brother in the afternoon. And I wore heels ._. pain pain PAINNNN. At starbucks:

Me: One cuppuccino. Take away. thanks

Louis: I treat you lar.

Me: awwww :D

Louis: cause you gonna lose while playing cards later. hiak hiak

...

This reminds me that I lost my starbucks card. Damn it, my wallet T.T Steamboat as reunion dinner, as usual. Cards. Angpausss. Foodsss. The best time to gain weight! Hopefully. Heehee.

Day 1. I love my outfits today. Heehee. My family said I grew taller! So happy. I think it's true cause my petite seemed to be shorter ._. And that's why I felt very uncomfortable wearing this today. 

I did something very stupid, again :(



A wordy post.

Insomnia again. Just read some people's blogs. It was a long time ago I last view it. And I realise, I'm actually quite lucky and blissful, in certain aspects. People tend to be emo in their blogs, they sound so depressed like seriously. This reminds me, when I was one of them before too. Love hurts sometimes and it never last, but the impact could last forever. I could see that in their posts and, my posts.

Sometimes, I do wonder. Frankly, I still don't believe in forever. The only thing that is real in fairy tale is that, princess loves the prince, instead of the knight. Yes, people always yearn for what they couldn't get. Me too. I got what people might envy of; People got what I envy of. It's impossible for us to be easily satisfied, but we should at least be contended. Still, saying is always easier than done.

If you feel alone, me too. Cause everytime when I passed by and everytime I'm down, it wasn't like the past. I'm still giving my best attempt to get myself adapt with it well. Cause I don't see many people here. For a few, because I can't. I can't. Why am I being so slow for every situation I'm in, like forever? I hate this. If I know, I won't. If? I just need a friend. A normal but best friend. Yet, I 've none. Okay, you guys might wonder what the heck I'm talking about.

I'm not how good or how bad you think. Maybe some of you think I'm, but please, don't ever judge me. I'm not taking things for granted, but I just don't feel the importance of some of these. Cause I need some other things more, for now.

And when you own too much, the feeling of afraid to lose them just crept in.

你如果很幸福 半夜的简讯我就无需回覆;

Sorry.

I don't promise but I never thought that when I finally did, I break it.

REALITY.

Dear viewers, do you know the feeling of breaking down? I know.

And, life is so unfair.

My efforts ruined by despicable tricks, satisfy?

It's damnn UNFAIR.

Random.

People who matter:)

 Gor.Mum.Aunt.Dad.

 Sis.

 Yuan qin!

 Hao jie mei.

 Siao da bors.

 Bull! Eh very cute right. haha

 Rich guy, Thanks a lot. Hahaha

ChaoNv.LJ.LY.

Xyn.

 Meaty wj XD

4 Bising :D

Lao da.Edlyn.                                                               Gor :)

Typical naggy!

Okay the reason why I choose this pic is, when did I took this pic huhh?

._.

Anyway, thanks for being here for me :) You guys rock.

Loves;

Phobia.

I don't even have the strength to scream.

Ever since that moment, my wolrd started to turn upside down. Cause I need to face what I finally get over after so much trying and so much time, in a merely impossible space soon, again. Mess up. Screw up. I miss the days in Turkey, at least I could keep myself from reality for a while. I can't express my feeling. I feel so weak now.

I hate to be so slow and dumb in every situation. Waver. Nobody has a perfect life, and so to me. I don't complaint. It's just expectations always kill. You were right, I got no guts. Yes, I don't want to face it. Who could I lean to? Nobody. Cause everyone ends up leaving. And for those staying, I can't. I really can't. I feel so dead inside. And, I don't know what to do. Tongue tied. Oh no, I'm still, so weak. All I can't see are scars and fear. My mind is in a mess and I got no idea to describe it.

I couldn't help myself from being so, depressed and lost.

''I know. I really know. Just answer it, and cry.''

0338am;

01122012.

Dilemma. I couldn't find any other words that suit my mood anymore. This is the fifth year for me and Li Yu to be in the same class. Fated yeah? Haha. I'm glad to have sis and chao nv in the same class again. I need them lots. A lot.

Anyway, I'm disappointed with myself. Ill is just an excuse, not even a reason. From now on, I have to pay double effort to acheive my future life that I really want. It might not be easy but I won't give up. I care for my study, lots, more than you think. I care, even more than my health. 或许努力未必能成功，但不努力，你永远只能原地踏步. 人生就是要不断地进步. This is reality, not fairy tale. Always try your very best. 

My first day in 2012, and yeah my mood is like the end of the day. Please tell me this is a joke or nightmare. Down. Exhausted. Intennse headache. Depression. Pressurised. Dilemma. Thanks to my dearest brother and sis, I love you two ♥

Yes, we ALL know that this is interesting but can't you just shut up? I'm not being mean to you but please ask yourself, this is not the first time isn't it? Be queit won't kill you right? Please spend your time with some meaningful activities. Thanks.

错愕;